I am weird

I am pretty sure I’m weird. My passionate interests range wildly with very little consistency, one minute I am embracing my inner chef and essentially destroying my kitchen but then in that same thought, at that same time I am juggling thoughts of fantasy football statistics and big budget movie plots that I made up. I’m not saying this to sound like some “woah totally random!” type faux genius. I am more pointing out the oddity of someone like me (who has spent my entire life embracing the lifestyle of free thought and creativity) occupying so much of my conscious thought to the structured world of business, not just during work though, in all hours of my life and even sometimes in my dreams, it’s truly an obsession.

 

I started college as a theater and computer science major thinking I would use the latter to fall back on should my acting career never take off. I’ve always been obsessively driven in things I’m passionate about and I knew that I wanted to be involved in making movies so I decided I would devote my life to the craft of acting. Everyday I would scour the internet looking for things to read about acting and I would watch movies, take notes and try to envision how I would play the characters. That was until one day that I watched ‘The Social Network’. As the movie progressed I stopped paying attention to the actors and started to take in the characters, there was something about the energy and excitement of Facebook going from a website in a dorm to something that gave Mark Zuckerburg this empowering feeling that resonated with me. It wasn’t about being rich but it was about the idea that from this inclining that  Mark had, it grew to be something big, innovative and made a difference in the world. It was at that point that I realized that I wanted to get into the world of business.

It was strange, as my knowledge of business grew I started to look many different aspects of life through that lens. Most new gadgets and exciting technologies that came out captured my imagination still but in a whole different way, I now thought about what it took to reach this point, how did the inventor get people to pay attention to him? How did he raise money? How much did he give up? How does he plan to sell it?

I’m still like that to this day, I think it’s the strategy, competition and logic of it all that drives me. I know for most people business is just where people go to work or where people make money (dont get me wrong I still want to make money) but for me it’s a little different; I want help innovate the world, I want to create something from nothing and I want play the mental chess game that is sales. It’s like when a great painter can see his painting on the canvas before he has even started, I have this burning desire inside me to paint my picture in business.